These past few weeks have been perhaps the toughest mentally and emotionally that I have had to deal with in a very long time, since my accident in 2006. Looking back over the past year I see how I have honestly been trying so hard to get me and my life back … I realize now that is where I’ve been going wrong. You see "I’m no longer that person nor is my life that life".
My Goal is that by October 28th, 2011- even if I don't have all the pieces of my life in place I will have Created A New Me! Saying this out loud and writing it makes it real, it also means that I now have to let go of the me and life I knew and lived; to be able to embrace the NEW!!!
Have you found yourself at a cross-road, what was your first step to rebuilding your life?
"I cannot believe that the purpose of life is to be "happy." I think the purpose of life is to be useful, to be responsible, to be compassionate. It is, above all, to matter and to count, to stand for something, to have made some difference that you lived at all."
ReplyDelete- Leo C. Rosten
I'm not sure why this quote came to mind when I read your post - but it did. So I'm sharing it...
xoxo
You have to be readu to embrace your new life. Something seems to be holding you back.
ReplyDeleteHoping things work out for you.
Susan
I wish for you all the best as you move forward. Interestingly enough, I am giving away a copy of a book that is about contentment, "A Still and Quiet Soul: Embracing Contentment", if you care to visit my blog and leave a comment.
ReplyDeleteCongratulations to you!! Deciding to make a change is normally the toughest part of actually changing! Good luck and know you have all of your blogging friends as a support!
ReplyDeleteChange is scary, it's the unknown & it's tough! But I have to come to see that without risk you'll never know anything :) So good job on embracing the new you.
ReplyDeleteWow, this one is tough, but also inspiring. When I have been at the most challenging times in my life I have had to step back and ask what it is I am seeking, what it is I am willing to give, and what I am willing to do to get there.
ReplyDeleteI think letting go of what I call "bad old ideas" is fairly easy, it's the letting go of the "good old ideas" that is so hard, the things we have always categorized as "good" may not be at this point in life.
Sending you a hug, and keeping you in my prayers,
tp
PS: Love that you liked Pink Tartan, I was so tickled by your post, it looked like so much fun!
It's hard to let go, a body builds a life around what will be - what we hope will be. When something happens that is out of our control and life changes at first we feel we have to settle for less - because this 'somehing' that happened is not what we want -
ReplyDeleteI've been struggling with this for a very long time because our son suffers with addiction. This wasn't suppose to happen - I don't want to 'settle' for this life that we are leading but somehow I have to and make the best of it - because not moving forward into this life leaves us all frozen in time.
So somehow we 'recreate' ourselves and dream a different dream - I haven't gotten there yet - you will.
Such a tough thing to do...it takes such strength just to say it/write it out loud and try to hold yourself accountable.
ReplyDeleteEven if its not the same life and you do not feel you are the same person, it does not mean that it cannot be even better xx
ReplyDeleteThere is only one thing that comes to mind after reading your moving post...
ReplyDeleteBrava
I can totally relate to your post. I lost my job last year after working for the same company for 12years. Admittedly I was a workaholic, so the loss of my job was a major setback for me. For more months than I'd like to admit, I played the role of a victim and was simply stuck.
ReplyDeleteAbout a month ago, I woke up one morning and decided I needed to take my power back and turn things around. I'm at a place in my life where I need to move on, accept reality and get on with my life.
I've been reading motivational books, sourounding myself with positive people and attitudes. I've revamped my resume and am networking up a storm. I feel energized and know that things will turn my way very soon.
Good luck to you HHL.
I like the idea of the timeline. I see where I want my life and it's time to start taking steps to get it there!
ReplyDeleteWhat you are doing is extremely difficult and shouldn't be dismissed easily. The hardest part for me when I have been at a crossroads is learning to not keep looking in the "rear-view mirror" and only focusing on my front-view mirror.It's really difficult and is something I have to work on daily Just don't put a time-frame on the changes you want. God/Universe never works to our plan ;-)
ReplyDeleteYou writing immediately caught my attention and left me wanting to hear and know more about you. You may count on us as your friends!
ReplyDeleteLooking forward to more...
Your friends, Jason & Slavica
so excited for you!! you can do it - we believe in you!!
ReplyDeletesending prayers your way!
I feel so proud of you right now. Breaking looose from the past & all thinks, physically, emotionally, etc hoding us back is the hardest.
ReplyDeleteWe have a big sign up at work... it is so trite but true, "put one foot in front of the other, repeat!"
Really though, writing and thinking about what is important NOW and where do you want to be...
I decidd my blog would be a venue not to sell my own art (nice when that happens) but to give back. That is why I have the giveaways I do.
xoxo
Karena
Art by Karena
sorry about all the misspelling, why can't we have spellcheck on blogger!?
ReplyDeleteMy precious and sweet Celia,
ReplyDeleteFirst of all, it is with such pleasure that I open my comments to see your lovely presence. Thank you for coming by just to say hello; it is that gesture that makes a human being so beautiful. Love is the answer, and what you are going through is what everyone has to do, of course at different stages and with different circumstances. But forgetting about who we once were and becoming what we are meant to be is what I discussed in my previous post, FREE AS A BIRD...I was once young and beautiful. Much was hinged on that and I grew up depending on THAT ALONE to be confident that I would be valued. But every day that I look in the mirror and every twinge of pain in my once very gifted and nimble limbs reminds me that I TOO have to confidently shape the new me...the new me that will embrace the eternal treasure awaiting us all who have faith and who are prepared to do the work of character building. Be not afraid or confused...we are all in the same boat my dearest....we are all in the same situation. You are special, you have a message to give and you will leave an impression in the lives around you. You already have with me....blessings to you dear one. Anita
Hello sweetheart ..
ReplyDeleteChange is difficult for just about everyone, but when your entire life has been changed without your asking for it or planning it, it must take a very long time to adjust and to accept the changes.
Having met you for too brief a moment, I can only say that the person I met was lovely and warm and loving. So if that was the new you, you are on the right path :)
You are beautiful and you are young, and you are loved. Those things can change in small ways but the being loved part can last forever.
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much love, C and Pup
Dearest Celia,
ReplyDeleteOh, we always want to reach our goals (set by us!) in a hurry... But I too have to learn over and over again that we must have patience and look ahead; not back. When I had my check up at my doctor I thought I would get off my Prednisone and Actonel but NO I must continue and see him back in mid September. Often it drags me down when thinking how I used to be and what all I could do without any problem. Than other days (those filled with sunshine!) tell me; hey, isn't this quite a mile stone away from being paralyzed just 14 months ago... We tend to forget that we need to heal, mentally and physically and believe again in ourselves. Not hating the past but accepting more and more the new future that's coming; the un-known. Like my husband, after his quadruple bypass surgery he's not capable of doing a lot of things he used to do. The other day in the garden he said: I'm so easily out of breath. I just hugged him and said, that's okay, I love you as much as before and our garden doesn't need to be tip-top shape. What is important in life? Supporting each other on the road to healing. We go to the hospital's Fitness Center and it is good for both of us.
So you too will manage with your love and Dolce and... you WILL get there, we all together by holding hands!
Lots of love,
Mariette
Just found your blog, enjoyed this post...but remember first, to be kind to yourself!
ReplyDeleteLife presents accidents and obstacles for us to rebuild, slow down and restore. I usually go to the woods for my daily/weekly inspiration. It allows me to embrace life better. It clears the mind and is altogether positive for the senses. Wish you all the best on the journey. xx
ReplyDeleteI am doing that too...I think that there is a lot of things that i can't change so i will reinvent myself...It is hard.
ReplyDeleteThanks for being such a great example. I know you can do it.
Hugs
I don't have first steps...I have baby steps right now
ReplyDeletewow this post couldn't have come at a better time in my life!!!
ReplyDeleteSo many hugs to you my friend!
Terry
Hi sweet friend!
ReplyDeleteGosh, I've had fun catching up with you tonight. (loved all your posts, but especially the one on KFC and the missing ? breast...too funny). It seems like FOREVER since I've had time to just read blogs and enjoy myself. Between our two weeks in California and then having two grandsons here for Spring Break, I seem to have gotten myself behind. Not anymore though. I'm BAAAACK!
Hugs,
Kat